rhythm

Blue moon

2011-09-25T16:21:00.000+02:00

Zes jaar geleden, raakte ik iemand kwijt.
Eén van de bijzonderste mensen die ik ooit heb gekend.
Zes jaar geleden, nam ik afscheid,
Van een ontzettend liefdevolle en sterke vent.
Zes jaar geleden, maar onze liefde is voor altijd.
Ik zal altijd van je houden zoals je bent.
Zes jaar geleden, een hele lange tijd.
Maar aan de leegte die jij achterliet, raak ik nooit gewend.

golden

2011-06-15T15:58:00.001+02:00

just dance

2011-05-17T00:35:00.002+02:00

Awesome picture made by Nick Leeftink, my housemate, at our 'Golfpro's and Tennisho's' party on friday the 13th!

dreams

2011-02-04T15:42:00.001+01:00

scream

2011-02-03T19:27:00.002+01:00

LOL :D

Summer

2011-02-03T14:19:00.002+01:00

My best friend's band made this feelgood song with videoclip! Check out their music, 'cause it's really good!

Stefany June - Stefanie Martens, Sem Christoffel, Peter Muller, Gert Zomer, Julian Enequist, Philip Coenen.
http://www.stefany-june.com/

I know it took me a long time to realize what you meant to me..

Change

2011-01-25T22:13:00.002+01:00

Change can make you love what you once lost.

Shades

2011-01-16T17:56:00.003+01:00

Just playing around with Photoshop. It got thrown off my computer, so hadn't done it for a while..

I don't quite know why, but i really like this photo!

Bag lady

2010-12-11T17:51:00.003+01:00

I really need to get creative again! But there are so many different things to do! I really want to start a little "business" in simple things like:
- t-shirts with text on it, text can be anything anybody wants
- baby cuddly toys made of Indonesian batik fabric
- simple leather bags
- shopping bags

But I need to make a start, and it's harder than I thought. So, today i went to the fabric market in Utrecht, and i bought 3 pieces of leather. To try stuff out a little. First results are in. Do you like it?

One day, he'gonna say: you crowded my space.

2010-10-27T20:22:00.004+02:00

Crystal Renn is a model who suffered from anorexia. She used to be a skinny model who ate nothing but vegetables and sugarfree gum. Once she realized this wasn't what made her happy, she let go of all her habits and started over. She is now what they call a 'plus size model'. She often models for H&M and I think she's beautiful!! Though H&M refers to her that she's a 'maatje 44', I hardly believe it. But still, she's an example for a lot of girls who aren't blessed with a body like Gisele Bundchen. She shows there's nothing wrong with a little bit more, less isn't always more..

ring a ling

2010-10-25T15:01:00.001+02:00

still in love with my ring

Never going back again

2010-09-23T09:53:00.003+02:00

Sometimes, when you feel a bit down, you find or think of the most awesome quotes about life and love. But it seems so 'emo' to place them on Hyves or Facebook, so thought I'd share some with you:

I came to find love, but somehow I lost myself.
*my own version of Thydeus by Theodectus 'I came to find my son, but now I'm lost myself.' (God, I feel so intellectual being able to sort of quote this :P)
Live your dream instead of dreaming your life.
I don't remember how I got to this one
Not everything in life that counts, can be counted.
Albert Einstein

And music quotes, gotta love them:
I really never felt quite the same, since I lost what I had to gain, no one to blame - Groove Armada - Hands of time

You asked to kiss me once goodbye, but you already did, on somebody else's lips - John Mayer - Why did you mess with forever

Cause when I think, I'm taking more than would a fool. I start fallin' back in love with you - Alicia Keys - Fallin'

Love and time heal everything!

Sing it back

2010-09-20T15:57:00.004+02:00

Wow. It has been over two months since I've written something over here. 2 big things happened!

Biggest thing: my trip to Indonesia. Never have I done something so amazing, and I felt like the luckiest person, as I was able to enjoy it with the people I love the most: my family. My brother Jim, my grandmother, my uncle and aunt, my niece and nephew. Unfortunately, my parents didn't come with.

For 3 weeks we travelled the around on the island Java. It was simply amazing. I met family I’ve never met before and it felt like we’d known each other for years. I also met family I had seen once before when I was like 6 years old. But I remembered them really well. They waited for 2 hours at the airport to pick us up. We didn’t expect that at all!

I’ve been to the city my grandfather was born, Bogor. We’ve been to Jakarta, where my mom was born. We’ve gone to places my uncle grew up. And we saw so many beautiful things. Sunset at a crater at 3 km high, really cold! Local people photographing us as we were photographing them. At least a hundred screaming girls who wanted pictures with us and especially my nephew (14) who was about their age.

After travelling on Java, staying at each hotel (and one villa) for about 2-3 nights we went to Bali. For the 2 weeks we stayed here, my other niece and my nieces boyfriend also came to Indonesia. For 8 days we had an AMAZING villa on the beach. Swimming pool, two women who cooked for us every day, a gardener, security, huge guesthouse and a lot of ‘chill-spots’ around the villa. Loved it.

After that we went south on Bali, at a town that has more tourism. Also in a villa, a bit smaller because it was in the middle of the city, but with a beautiful swimming pool and a view on the sawa’s (rice-fields). Enjoyed a night out with the young ones (also my nephew, hihi) and my uncle Theo, who danced more than anyone else in the club.

Last but not least: THE FOOD. I knew my grandmother is a great cook, and since you’re used to her food, it’ll always be your favorite. But damn, the food is good! My stomach didn’t always agree, but it was like heaven on my tongue;)

Maybe even bigger thing: my education! Made a choice. Since I’ve already studied in Utrecht, and I love the city, it was more likely for me to study over there. But I don’t know if I’m cut out for this University level. And I liked my time at the art academy, so the one in Arnhem crossed my mind as well. But I don’t know if I want to become a teacher, and I love acting and movies and I’d love a job in the media one day. So I chose for Theater, Film and Television at the University of Utrecht. I got my old room back and I moved about 2 weeks ago. I already started, and it’s a big challenge as I see it right now. Difficult words, a lot of reading and English texts as well. But I know I can do it, and I’ll do my very best.

tell me what to do

2010-07-08T22:10:00.005+02:00

A week ago, i did an admission for the education 'teacher art & design' (toelating Docent beeldende kunst & vormgeving, hoe zeg je dat nou in het engels?) @ ArtEZ Arnhem.
and i passed the exam! So if i want to, next year i can study in Arnhem to become a teacher. But the thing is, i don't think i want to be a teacher. So i'm probably not going to do that next year.

All i know for sure now, is that i quit my job. I was a car saleswoman for half a year, i sold cars on an internet auction. In the beginning i really liked the job and sometimes i sold 12 cars in one day! But after a few months i got bored and it made me want to studie further even more.

Next week i'm going to Indonesia for 5 weeks! i'm soooo excited and i'm really looking forward to it. So before i leave, i have to decide what i'm going to study next year. i think it'll be Theater, Movie and Television at the University of Utrecht. (Theater, Film en Televisiewetenschappen, geweldige vertaling he?) But i'm not quite sure. I would really like a career in the media. I'd love to be an actress or host or something. So that will probably suit me more. And I just love Utrecht and since i've lived there for a year i would really like to get more out of it.

And i passed my driving test yesterday: yeeeeeey! but i have to wait a week before i can pick up my driving license, so after Indonesia i will drive my ass off.

i'm so busy buying the last things before i go on vacation. i bought a huge suitcase and i'm trying to pack as little as possible, so i can buy a lot of souvenirs and clothes and fruit! rambutan is my favorite fruit, and it's really expensive in holland.

looks scary, but it tastes delicious!
kinda like lychee

Okay i'm starting to jabber away.. bye!

you know what

2010-06-17T21:16:00.004+02:00

i love my new glasses :D

SCREAM

2010-06-11T23:44:00.003+02:00

accessorize me

With such confusions don't it make you wanna scream ?!

janet & michael

to make you feel my love

2010-06-06T20:44:00.004+02:00

i know you haven't made your mind up yet
but i would never do you wrong
i've known it from the moment that we met
no doubt in my mind where you belong

i could make you happy make your dreams come true
nothing that i wouldn't do
go to the ends of the earth for you
to make you feel my love

beautiful adele song, been practicing on it with my singing teacher.

what is love

2010-06-06T20:19:00.004+02:00

baby don't hurt me

hallelujah

2010-05-25T00:06:00.003+02:00

i totally went for it, finished the 4 days of eating fruit, fruit and nothing but fruit.. and together with the diet i was already following, lost 4 kilo's. one to go to get back to my previous weight and maybe even a few more? gotta wear some shorts these days...

paper back writer

2010-05-18T23:27:00.002+02:00

thought i'd try to put my creativity in writing for a change...

Why we postpone...

As a lot of people probably know, i've been fighting against my extra pounds for quite a while now. I must say, the past year has been the most successful one. I had lost about 12-15 kilo in 3-4 months. Ofcourse i'm very proud of it, but i'm also a bit ashamed because, surprise surprise, some of those pounds have returned. I was enjoying the good life a little too much. But i started to feel a bit unhappy as i looked on my weighing machine, and in the mirror. So i decided to be a little tougher on myself again. This week, i'm trying to clear my body by eating nothing but fruit for 4 days. This is my second day, and GOD i'm dying for something else to eat. Beside cleaning your body from the inside, it also helps to lose weight and since i have a party this friday... I have a dress from 2006 which i'd love to wear. The zipper already closes, but ofcourse now i'm in my 20's, my breasts are bigger than when i was sweet 16...
But as i was saying... food. I almost believe it's the one thing i love more than my friends and family, haha. I know a few pounds less would look better on me, but it sometimes it is so hard to leave those M&M's in their bag. I think dieting is one of the hardest things in the world. Sure it sucks when somebody breaks up with you, or when you lose someone you love. But those things are a part of life, you have to deal with it. It happens while you'd never choose for it to happen. When you decide to go on a diet, to put it as depressing as possible: you're volunteering to torture yourself. And another shitty thing about it: you'll have to watch what you're eating for the rest of your life, maybe not as much as in the beginning, but the little voice inside your head will haunt you forever.
Do you know those people who say: 'I'm gonna start dieting on monday!' Let's call them 'postponers'. It sounds as if they want to enjoy eating shamelessly for a few days and then start their diet. Somebody told me something that actually angered me: 'If i could get my hair back by drinking juice for 10 days, i'd start right away!' Believe me, if it were that simple, a whole lot of women would look like Gisele Bündchen. It's the part áfter the diet, thát's the hardest part. You have to leave McDonald's, KFC and chocolat in your past. So when you decide to go on a diet, you'll have to stick with it for life, so it is totally understandable to postpone, as long as you don't postpone it too long.

In my experience, it is best to pick a eating-lifestyle, not a 10-day-diet. Those pounds almost always grow back. Let your body get used to a new eating style, and follow that style for the rest of your life. And if you totally feel like sinning for a day: enjoy it! but not too often ;)

Golden Tip: Fit For Life (Een Leven Lang Fit) by Harvey and Marilyn Diamond. This is the lifestyle i've been following for a year now, and i feel full of energy and if you stick to the diet, your pounds will stay off! It's all about combinations of food. Google it, i love it, i can have french fries without feeling guilty!

paris

2010-04-12T23:24:00.004+02:00

paris avec mon cheri, i absolutely loved the city and we had a great time

lafayette

louvre

Wedding of Cana (1562-63) (Veronese)

louvre baby

view from our hotelroom

centre poepiedoen

sacre bleu! euh, sacre coeur!

swarovski stairs

who says

2010-04-11T20:56:00.003+02:00

driehoekscompositie:')

flower pot

2010-04-11T18:38:00.003+02:00

isn't this hilarious? a creative way to solve this ruined flower pot :') (yes, that used to be a flower pot, it just stood there for a whole winter and slowly fell apart)

99 luftballons

2010-04-07T21:15:00.003+02:00

2 months of silence... a few pictures i've made recently!
i went 'hiking' on a sunday and i got a trip in a balloon from my man!

don't just love a nice sun set?

hahaha i ran after a guy that was just jogging in the park, i wonder what he was thinking :')

then i was smiling, 3 seconds later i fell down because a little branch i was holding on to broke :')

beaaautifull

and then we landed in a grass-land with 4 cows...

winter

2010-02-07T14:53:00.004+01:00

strong winter, when are you gonna end? spring where are you?

be magnified

2010-01-17T03:22:00.005+01:00

okay i realize i have, no life at all...

BUT IT'S SO FUNNY=d

how to warp a photo the old fashion way....

it looks like a possible face, and that makes it so damn ugly.
self-mockery rulez
haha

ring the alarm

2010-01-17T02:44:00.003+01:00

i love elegant jewelry. and i especially love jewelry with a story behind it...

my (indonesian) grandfather loved stones (edelstenen) he bought them every country he visited. i believe this ring contains a stone called 'black onyx'. he wore it every day, and because the stone was a bit loose, it made a little sound (he couldn't even hear it himself) everytime he moved his hand. i got the ring from my grandfather when he passed away. i miss the sound, since the stone is now glued to the ring because if i didn't, i might lose it.

when i was little, i always asked my grandfather if i could look at his rings and stones. and i loved this red ruby ring, which actually belonged to my grandmother. it was too small for her, and it fitted my small fingers perfectly. but eventually, i grew out of it as well. yeeeears later, she wore the ring because she'd lost some weight. i think she could tell i was jealous, because a few months later she brought it to the juweler, made it bigger and gave it to me. i wear it almost every day.

my dutch grandmother got this blue sapphire ring from her mother. it's not really my style, but i love the idea to have an inheritance that old from the family. that makes it special to me. unfortunately, i have never known my other grandfather, so i don't really have something that once was his. oh well.. i got enough love and stories from the ones i already have :)

between these walls

2010-01-10T02:15:00.008+01:00

junkie XL

snuff

2010-01-10T01:34:00.003+01:00

though long hair may look pretty...
it can be SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS

first picture unedited, how cool is that?

be prepared

2010-01-09T00:07:00.005+01:00

create a 2D version of the mythological story of a zodiac sign in the most simple way possible

(mine tells the story of the lion, obviously. in which Herakles kills the Nemean Lion with a bat because it's skin is impervious. The black curl is a sign to indicate the zodiac sign)

curly wirly

view from my bedroom window. i love how my hometown can be so quiet and alive at the same time. Can you see the birdies?

hair

2009-12-07T00:45:00.006+01:00

hahaha, my friends and i often joke about 'porn hair', in which case your hair is long enough to cover your breasts when you're naked...

:')

(i thought i'd spare you the naked version;)

mijn houten hart

2009-11-28T21:41:00.006+01:00

night 'ambiance'

still not really great pictures, but oh well, you get the general idea ;)

dit is mijn hart, mijn houten hart
de heren voor u hebben het alvast verzwaard
dus wees maar lief, 't kan geen kwaad
en stelen lijkt me niet de moeite waard

goldielocks

2009-11-21T15:57:00.003+01:00

unedited.

i love long hair, and if it were up to me, i'd have curls

this is it

2009-11-21T12:47:00.003+01:00

i can almost hear you thinking, is this the most creative she's been lately? is this it? well it was delicious!
i have made 2 shirts but i haven't photographed them yet, so that's coming up..

but talking 'bout this is it.. i've been to the cinemas and i've seen michael jackson's movie. how amazing can an artist be???

i don't care people talking about his nose and his skin, it don't matter if you're black or white. his inside was beautiful and at least he tried to make the world a better place. i believe everyone must think of MJ as a role model. his music was innovative and amazing. and if you see this movie, you can see he's different from many other artists in this world. he knows his music, he knows what he's talking ánd singing about. as you can see, words will never be enough to praise this man. god bless you.

I LOVE YOU MICHAEL

she bangs

2009-11-08T00:57:00.001+01:00

just hold me

2009-11-08T00:36:00.007+01:00

i haven't been all that creative lately, but i've been trying to think of things for me to do this year and next year. shall i travel? shall i focus on my next education? shall i work 9 till 5? one thing is for sure. i shall travel! 2010 will be the year i'll take a look at MY ROOTS. yes yes yes i'm going to INDONESIA!!! i've aaaalways wanted to go there and i never thought it would happen so fast, but as a few members of my family decided to go, i just couldn't resist. my sweet sweet (indonesian) grandmother will join us so that'll be awesome as well.

so.. creativity.. it was time to get creative again! yesterday i had an audition for a musical. for dance ánd for drama. i've always been a dramaqueen and yesterday i thought it was time to see if the professionals thought so too.. and if i may say so, they kinda did;) it was my first time on stage and the jury thought i had a lot of potential and talent.. so within the next 2 weeks i will hear if i got a part in the musical.. exitingggg..

comfortable as i am,
i need your reassurance
comfortable as you are,
you count the days

but if i wanted silence,
i would whisper
if i wanted loneliness,
i'd choose to go
and if i'd like rejection,
i'd audition
and if i didn't love you,
you would know...

curl

2009-10-21T14:39:00.002+02:00

I've always wanted curls, guess sometimes u just have to fake it...

i want to ride my bicycle

2009-10-12T23:47:00.002+02:00

day at the beach

2009-09-28T01:26:00.004+02:00

eva

pictures

2009-09-17T02:43:00.004+02:00

random photography

mijn houten hart

2009-09-17T01:16:00.005+02:00

painting i made for a sweet friend of mine. it's called 'mijn houten hart' (my wooden heart). a beautiful dutch song by acda & de munnik. i like the version of Raffaëla Paton more, though.

i used acrylic paint and small pieces of wood. only have detailed photo's, because it wasn't finished yet, and my camera's at the repairman right now.

dit is mijn hart, mijn houten hart

de heren voor u hebben het alvast verzwaard

dus wees maar lief, 't kan geen kwaad

en stelen lijkt me niet de moeite waard

you're the inspiration

2009-09-08T00:46:00.002+02:00

nigerian art

flaws and all

2009-08-17T16:21:00.004+02:00

My project is finally finished!

This is the video I have been working on lately:
http://nibbit.hyves.nl/fotos/692809438/0/xhdb/?&pageid=A2VIALRUM3KGC4C4S

And this is the weblog:
http://aboveandbeyonce.blogspot.com/

You can watch the vid on the weblog as well, but the one on hyves has a better quality. Youtube won't accept my vid because of the copyright on the songs..

Just to be clear: the movie was made to present the clothing, not for me trying to be a performer or something, though i did like to do it ;)

I would like to thank a lot of people who have helped me make this video.

First one: DADDY! My dad Rijn Kwakkel is a camera man and he made the video with me. It took him a lot of time and i really really appreciate his help!!! Because it looks great! Thank you pap!

Sem Christoffel. my sweet sweet friend who joined me in my clip as 'my boyfriend'. thank you so much!
And I would like to thank:
Lisan Beune (my girlfriend in the clip, and my adviser;))
Francesco Bekkema (my dancing teacher, who has also let me use his dancing studio)
Jim Kwakkel & Robert Estévez (my beer-drinking friends)
Luuk Mayeba (my kid on the paparazzi-shots)
Atak Enschede (for the stage-pictures) Café Crash
Drie Gezusters Enschede
Hotel Bad Boekelo
Velda

I probably have to tell you i won't be studying fashion design anymore. I'm going to search for something else, that'll probably suit me better. after shooting this clip, maybe my acting skills have developed in something usefull?
.....

diva

2009-08-13T00:48:00.007+02:00

lil' sneak peak of what i've been doing lately

as you can see, i've been working on a video, next week it'll be finished!

shooting my first real video, made me feel like a diva! it was a lot of fun and hard work.

get the party started

2009-08-02T17:47:00.004+02:00

go shawty, it's my birthday! and i partied like it was my birthday!

and i proudly present the birthdaypresent from my parents which will, hopefully, contribute a lot to my work:

and i got a big ass flatscreen tv from my bro! and my friends got me a lot of sweet presents, including this zebra shirt and the sash (sjerp) on the first picture.thanks for the presents and party!

truth is

2009-07-13T22:08:00.004+02:00

je hoeft niet aan een boom te hangen om een eikel te zijn

the park

2009-07-12T13:17:00.004+02:00

haha, nice picture in the park after dark

(06.15 this morning)

where is the love

2009-07-10T18:17:00.004+02:00

bad

2009-07-08T17:16:00.008+02:00

i've learned to love

every part of your body and soul

i've learned to like

you make me feel whole

you've touched me deep

inside my heart

i never thought

we'd ever part

though i truly believed

you were the one

i don't want a second chance

for something you did wrong

don't stop 'till you get enough

2009-07-04T01:00:00.008+02:00

haven't been updating that much lately. my assessment didn't go very well. i can't find the right words in english, i have to do another assignment to convince my teachers i'm at the right place. in dutch: een herkansing. ik had voor 1 vak een onvoldoende gekregen en mijn presentatie was ook onvoldoende.

if i don't convince that teacher, i'll have to quit school, which really sucks ofcourse. so i'll do my very best to blow them away! because i know i can. i just haven't been myself lately. but i think i've come out of it, 'cause i feel great. i've lost 10 kilo! and i look amazing, haha just kidding (no, really).

so the assignment is to keep up a (fashion)diary of an artist/idol/star or something, for a week. i chose beyonce. i chose her a while ago, if i had to choose now, i'd probably choose michael jackson, but i've already made an outfit for B. won't reveal my ideas, that'll be a surprise, i hope;)

won't stop 'till i get enough

LOVE

xnicky

just a little music

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4_hz2am90Hk

will you be there

2009-06-27T01:58:00.008+02:00

but they told me

a man should be faithful

and walk when not able

and fight 'till the end

but i'm only human

LOVE YOUR MUSIC

who knew

2009-06-22T18:00:00.004+02:00

music clears my head

i love love love beyonce, but pink is also an old time favorite

how do you walk with your head held high
can you even look me in the eye
and tell me why?

pink - dear mr president

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q56pHCGrlc4

coloured light

2009-06-14T22:02:00.007+02:00

i went to the arnhem mode biennale this weekend. some things were amazing! i made a lot of pictures to share them with you and so i can get inspired everytime i look at them.

kei kagami

klavers van engelen

fernando brizio (a plain white dress with little bags in which felt-tips empty themselves upside down and form a pattern. after washing the dress you can create a new pattern.) andrea maackiris van herpen and a beautiful sky of the evening

how it was supposed to be

2009-06-12T00:45:00.003+02:00

even through all

the ups and downs

you can't stop

the way i feel now

even through the storm

joy and pain

i won't change

still feel the same

anytime you call

i don't care

no matter the reason

i'll be there

Ryan Leslie - Valentine

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A2fV4nnlG-I

click

2009-06-09T16:05:00.001+02:00

click
i can see
i'm paparazzi
you know nothing about me
knowing you is so easy
click

by the sea

2009-06-07T12:41:00.010+02:00

our family went to the north of holland, the 'wadden' this weekend, my aunt lives there. we had a nice time.

finally a slightly normal picture of me and my brother

goodies

2009-06-05T16:14:00.004+02:00

the students in the final year of fashion design have their own fashion show this month and the first year students have to help them out. Our first assigment this week: a standard design which you have to customize in your own style. about 40 students have to make their own version and photograph it. The photo's will be printed on a goodiebag in which the visitors find a pattern to make the same outfit in their own style. My aunt got me a beautiful fabric from Nigeria, so I decided to make an African style 'dress'. Immediately i thought of a model that would look great in it:

The model is Whitney Krens, she's a great singer and dancer. The outfit looked great on her! Thanks Whitney!

bleeding love

2009-05-24T16:30:00.017+02:00

my design teacher wasn't impressed by my interiors, so i'm hoping to show him something that will leave an impression of me as a person. when you have a broken heart, it can be really hard to enjoy your creativity and come up with ideas and be inspired. I wanted to make my free version of a broken heart to explain myself and what i've been going trough lately, to convince my teachers this school is the right place for me.

first (small) versionstill happy

you cut me openand i keep bleeding ;p

the fragile material is in front of my face to symbolize 'blinded by love'. i put thick cotton thread through the material to symbolize the way my life was woven into that other persons life. (en de rode draad door mijn leven.) the bobbins (klosjes) of thread in the center of my heart symbolize the second chances to let someone else weave it's life into mine.

outside

2009-05-22T19:27:00.004+02:00

my dress

photography by Tim

get busy

2009-05-20T12:40:00.002+02:00

my assessments went 'ok'. 2 teachers weren't very convinced of my last 2 assignments, the 'kijkdoos/watch box' and the fotoshoot with furniture. so i'm trying other things. now you know what's on my mind.

try out that turned out nice:

angry chair

2009-05-15T12:39:00.011+02:00

so i went to the studio yesterday, to photograph one of my final assignments. The instructions were: make a garment out of a furniture, or a furniture out of a garment. My first idea was to buy a couch and let a big sweater grow out of the upholstery (bekleding). But the couch i had seen at a local thriftshop was 375 euro...

so my next idea was to get furniture out of doll houses. Also very expensive and very hard to find. I found 2 little chairs (bigger than dollhouse size) and a slighty bigger, very interesting other chair.

In class my classmate Jasper said he had seen the same chair at another thriftshop, but just a little bit bigger, and he bought 2 for me. Thanks Jasper!

And a big thank you to Thijs for being the photographer!

2 bodies and one heart

2009-05-14T15:18:00.002+02:00

today was our assessment for nude drawing, i made it!
and we had 2 models today:

lost in contrast

2009-05-13T23:14:00.002+02:00

a few drawings i've made

marry for money

2009-05-11T19:00:00.013+02:00

this weekend i had a fotoshoot to present my dress. It's an assignment for drawing class and you could choose your own theme. I think the dress looks a little like a wedding dress so I wanted to make a scrap book with pictures of a happy couple. The dress looks lovely and sweet, but in reality it feels like paper, it's hard and because of the pie-paper (wedding cake idea) i glued on it, it's fragile too.

The first impression is they are a happy couple that love each other very much. But in reality she's not happy, her heart is fragile and she doesn't know what to do, so she kills her new husband. after her dark haze she realizes what she has done and cries.

my models were Marre Muijs and Sem Christoffel. Thank you both so much for helping me out, i think the pictures turned out great! I'm thankin my dad Rijn Kwakkel for being the photographer.

a few styling pictures:

through a keyhole

2009-05-10T14:35:00.007+02:00

make a 'kijkdoos' (watch box?) with your interior, or an interior you love, want to have but can't afford..: an interior for yourself. and also design an interior for the person you pictured yourself as in one of our last assignments.

my interior:

her interior:

I made my interior cosy and personal with pictures and the warm color red. just like my room at my parents house. very homy and not too big. my cousin hadn't seen my room in Utrecht yet and as she saw the picture and asked: is that your room in Utrecht? i felt my mission was accomplished :).
The other interior had to be for a celebrity, not personal, cold, a hotelroom because she's always on tour and barely sees her loved ones at home. She has it all, but she feels so lonely..

don't stop 'till you get enough

2009-05-08T21:34:00.004+02:00

thought it might be fun to show you my dance movies of last year.

(love this one:)

whatever happens

2009-05-05T21:07:00.003+02:00

He gives another smile, tries to understand her side
to show that he cares
She can't stay in the room, she's consumed
with everything that's been going on
she says

Whatever happens, don't let go of my hand

Everything will be alright, he assures her
But she doesn't hear a word that he says
Preoccupied, she's afraid
Afraid that what they've been doin's not right
He doesn't know what to say
so he prays

Whatever whatever whatever
Whatever happens, don't let go of my hand

Whatever happens, don't you let go of my hand

Michael Jackson - Whatever happens
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UnkZvILD7EQ

everybody knows

2009-05-05T02:01:00.004+02:00

i miss you,
more than i can explain
i miss you
my heart is still in so much pain
i miss you
your sweet laughter that always made my day
i miss you
more than i can ever say
i miss you
life can be so unfair
i miss you
eventhough i know you're with me somewhere

so hard to move on
still loving what's gone
lieve opa

random

2009-04-29T00:29:00.005+02:00

had some time left so i searched my computer for pictures of back in tha days.

love brownies

fading like a flower

2009-04-28T22:10:00.004+02:00

radish art

masquerade

2009-04-28T17:28:00.003+02:00

i'm on vacation with my family at a town nearby the sea. today we've put on masks to clear your skin. i just thought this was a funny (not so charming) picture.

i want to ride my bicycle

2009-04-21T12:22:00.009+02:00

yesterday, my dad wanted to go on a little bike tour to have a drink or icecream in Buurse (a few kilometers from my home town Enschede). on our way we made some pictures of funny stuff and eventhough the restaurant was closed, we had so much fun :')

just in time road - tree trunk art, little bird house wíth chimney

the fun in these pictures was what my dad said. in english it sounds nothing like our dutch accent:

Bennie! Moai jij t voortuintje eem an! En duje dan ook em 't achtertuuntje hark'n?

Bennie! Can you mowe the lawn and also rake the backyard?

maybe it's not even funny to outsiders but i just had to post it.

birdies - some good fake smiling

and those speak for themselves

LOVE MY DAD

bring me flowers

2009-04-20T10:43:00.003+02:00

a few beautiful flowers in our and grandma's garden

show me

2009-04-20T10:13:00.007+02:00

the show yesterday went wonderful. my models (Marloes green dress, Marlou flower legging) were great! unfortunately, making pictures during the real show was impossible because of the lack of a better camera and position, so i've made some pictures of the rehearsal and backstage.

some last adjustments

the green dress opens while walking (to the door when your lover unexpectedly rings the doorbell) her hair was in a bun on the show
and she shakes her hair loose and she's in a sexy dress

rehearsal

with marieka backstage, ten minutes to go!

paper cut

2009-04-16T10:43:00.002+02:00

eventhough i'm annoyed the AD paper has made a mistake by using the names of the models as if they were the designers of the outfits, i'm still happy to see my design on my beautiful friend anouk on the left!

water(bal)loo(n)

2009-04-16T00:02:00.002+02:00

my sweet cousins playing on their trampoline with waterballoons

picture perfect

2009-04-15T17:10:00.002+02:00

just a few photographs of the last 2 years

my friends dance shoe

having fun at dancing class

playing in the sand

lovebirds in berlin

oh happy day

2009-04-09T13:57:00.004+02:00

our show is gonna be at the Dom Church in Utrecht. We've been asked to send 4 outfits to do a shoot at the church to promote the show, i was one of them and Anouk was my model.
Left to right:
models: Bastiaan Lammers, Anouk van der Meij, Marlou Koning, Sharon Wesselius.
designers: Mirella Albers, Nicky Kwakkel, Jasper van den Burg, Marieka Ratsma
Ofcourse this is not the professional picture, but it's to show you a little preview.

down by the water

2009-04-06T21:39:00.003+02:00

my birdy shaking his feathers after bathing, so funny :')

american pie?

2009-04-02T20:51:00.006+02:00

my reflection outfit. finally there's nothing reflected about it, but it's not necessary because you could also get your inspiration from the reflections. i used wallpaper glue to make the (curtain) fabric hard and put paper on it. not just paper, but old fashion paper which you sometimes find underneath pies. the last layer is with plastic bags. i used a piece of flexible tube (right word?) to keep the dress wide and round.

excuse anouk for waving at herself :P

what is love

2009-04-02T01:41:00.002+02:00

or what is life, without being loved :)

i'm blessed to have such a great loving family

thank you for always being there for me!

keep me company

2009-04-02T01:03:00.004+02:00

work

ted wants a little attention

say what?!

my sweet little birdie keeps me company and always flies to me when he's out, love him

draw the line

2009-03-27T18:07:00.003+01:00

(cut out of a) 45 min sketch

flaws and all

2009-03-24T17:21:00.007+01:00

the assignment to picture yourself as someone else. my first inspiration was missy elliott and her weightproblem, but as i was making pictures it changed into celebrities in general. well, i took Beyoncé as an example, because i just love her.

I don't always like it when you open up an internet page and music starts to play, so if you want to listen to Beyoncé - Flaws and All, go here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=utmhAWJ3hgw It's one of my inspirations for my project, celebrities are human too ;).

So! this is the final picture!

i printed it on 50x68cm and below it i present these 2 pictures in A4-size, i didn't want them to attract attention from the 'perfect picture', because you can't always see what happens behind the scenes. i wanted to show the glamour of the rich life, and the lonelyness behind it. i really like the second one, i think it's stirring and touching. my teacher liked it too :)

controversy

2009-03-23T23:37:00.003+01:00

We had to draw a classmate and 'color' the drawing with pieces out of magazines. i missed that class so i used myself. you had to think of a name for a magazine and use your drawing as a front page.

volume

2009-03-23T23:21:00.003+01:00

for 'moulage' we're gonna make 2 tops in 2 lessons (+/- 4 hours per lesson) one has to be wide and big. the other has to be tight around the body. i started with the wide top. it is not finished yet, but it's gonna look something like this:

just experimenting

final form:

draw me close

2009-03-19T22:22:00.004+01:00

next assignment: take a picture of a person who has a neutral expression and one with the same person smiling. draw the picture (without tracing) and color it with acrylic paint. with one portret you can only use 5 colors and with the other, you can only use 5 shades of one color.

as i hope you can see, i pictured myself. i used copy paper with the first one (stupid as i am) so the paper is a bit bubbly.

what is love

2009-03-17T20:48:00.004+01:00

(drawing i've made in 2007)

holding hands, looking in your eyes
i see so much i can't describe
i can touch the tip of your nose and feel your soul
as i kiss your lips i lose control

if love is what this is
then love is what i love
and the things that i will cherish
are more than all of the above

if i were a boy

2009-03-13T00:55:00.004+01:00

the previous owner of my parakeet told me it was a girl, but as i asked a few 'experts' i found out, apparently it's a boy! i named him ted, but ofcourse i say teddy all the time.

if you want it

2009-03-12T15:33:00.006+01:00

with all the students in the first year of fashion design, we're gonna have a fashion show in the Dom in Utrecht on the 19th of april. the theme is 'dagelijkse kost' (something like daily routines) and the sub-theme is 'the daily ritual of going to bed and getting up'. we all had to make 2 outfits.
my first one is a form of a blanket which you can use when you're relaxing on your couch, made of flannel.

in my second outfit, you can also relax on your couch while watching tv or whatever. But the difference is that when your hot neighbour (;-)) unexpectedly rings your doorbell for a cup of sugar, while walking towards the door you can change your relax-outfit into a sexy dress. this works either way, if you're having a romantic diner in your sexy dress and your mom desides to come over without notice, at the door you can pretend you were just watching tv.

if you don't want to overreact, you can use the between-mode

naked

2009-03-12T15:09:00.003+01:00

Today was the first time we had to paint from the nude with acrylic paint.

this is my first sketch in 5 minutes

also one in 5 minutes

5 minute sketch

and here are pictures during the process of a 20 minute painting

and i made this one in 20 minutes as well

cry baby cry

2009-03-10T20:29:00.006+01:00

Cindy Sherman is a photographer. she uses herself as a model to show a lot of different characters. at school we got an assignment to do the same. you have to transform yourself to another person. you could choose your own character or type of person. i chose Missy Elliott. At first i just wanted a hiphopper and she'd be the perfect example for it. But i found it very interesting to pick an existing person, not just a type of person.

I also wanted to use the disguise of the perfect Missy Elliott, with make-up, clothing, ready for tv. But i also wanted to look at what happens behind the scènes. who is she when she gets home?

i searched the internet for her personal life. what struck me the most was the weight issue. i've experimented a bit with how to show it and came up with me standing on a scale and show the response of disappointment, grief and the pain that comes along with trying to lose weight. i'm still looking for the perfect combination of telling the story and share the feeling.

i made a few 'crying' pictures to show the grief, but i found them too personal to post, and they're just test-photo's. this photo is less confronting, but still shows the idea i'm trying to get at.

on & on

2009-03-09T22:36:00.006+01:00

For our drawing lesson, we had to cut 3 designs out of one collection of your 'favourite' designer. i just picked one since i don't have a favourite. you could only use the cutting technique with paper out of magazines.
3 designs of Haider Ackermann.

studio luv

2009-02-26T20:05:00.009+01:00

anouk and i made pictures in the studio of our garments we made out of patterns we mirrored. (?) these are mine:

skirt/shirt made out of the pattern of a sleeve, multiplied

skirt-multiplied under sleeve

pants-double pants upside down

sleeves-legging with stretched out pipes

shirt-multiplied 'sides' of a jacket

legging-legging upside down

jacket-sleeves end with the beginning of it (round)

catsuit-legging upside down

hand-worldpeace ;-)

twork it out

2009-02-23T17:55:00.003+01:00

in class today, we had an assignment similar to the one we had to rip paper. this time, you had 5 minutes to draw the model and then you could use scissors to cut out pictures out of magazine, to fill your drawing.

3 results of mine:

budgie

2009-02-23T17:46:00.004+01:00

i bought a parakeet! she doesn't have a name yet, any ideas?

She's 4 months now, i got her from a family, someone was allergic to her.

she loves to nibble on my fingers (au!) and sit on my shoulder.

i am not my hair

2009-02-17T14:11:00.004+01:00

reflect

2009-02-16T19:14:00.002+01:00

i experiented with some more legging reflections.. this is my (cute) friend marieka in my outfit, the sleeves are actually the pipes of the legging, i just didn't sew the crotch (right word?) together, so the head would fit there. love the elasticity of the fabric.

money money money

2009-02-16T19:02:00.006+01:00

haha i made this shirt for my boyfriend, so we took a funny picture of it with money money money!

you got to love it

2009-02-12T17:57:00.000+01:00

haider ackermann